Life-Desires Updates

I'm constantly reading and taking courses on the Law of Attraction. As I continue to find helpful information and experience those "ah-ha moments" I will post them here.


Mar 29, 2020

Everything Is In Perfect Order

Almost every morning I receive a message. It's not a voice, just words stuck in my head. Today, it was:

"Everything is in perfect order. There are no mistakes...ever."

That's it. It's been driving me crazy all morning, but that's all I'm getting.

Mar 22, 2020

Some May Not Like This

There are going to be many people who won't like this, but I've been hearing this over and over lately.

Knowledge and knowing are two different things.

There are so many people who believe that they are so "awakened" and that idea is coming from their ego.

You can raise your vibration to 4th, 5th, even 6th dimension, but that doesn't mean that you're actual EXISTENCE is higher than the 3rd dimension. You may be in a higher VERSION, but your still existing in 3D.

For myself personally, even after reading over 100 books and spending hours and hours listening to videos, releasing all worry and fear, muscle testing put me at 3.8. Knowledge means nothing.

95% of the world population still exists in 3D and that number has changed. We're going backwards.

You will not be fully awakened until you KNOW with 100% certainty who you really are. You will not exist in 4D until you know who you really are. This is the KNOWING that will change everything.

Click the link below to read the page, "Who You Really Are".

Continue reading "Some May Not Like This"

Mar 22, 2020


I've written many times that I use muscle testing for everything and I trust it completely. I've also come to the conclusion that I'm doing a form of channeling. I wake up with words and thoughts in my head now. As I begin to ask questions it seems to lead me to what I need to write.

Today it's Coronavirus.

Anyone on this site should know this, but just as a reminder, fear attracts fear. Worry attracts more worry. What you focus on expands. I'm not saying to ignore it. It's fine to take precautions, but we have to stay calm.

This is actually a good time to practice. Pay attention to your thoughts and practice shifting them. Notice when you go into a negative reaction.

It's also a great example of the "thought behind the thought". There was a big discussion about this in Conversations With God by Neale Donald Walsch. Why are you doing what you're doing? Is it based on fear or is it based on love?

I just read something this morning that said it all.

Seeing how quickly fear can spread, imagine if it were love instead.

Muscle testing tells me that this is a "LESSON" for humanity. It's a lesson about fear and judgement.

Say prayers of love, not fear.

Feb 14, 2020

Judgement Of Others

I was listening to an interview with a woman who channels Archangel Gabriel.

She had been intuitive since childhood, but she only saw dark energies. She even KNEW that at times, dark energies had taken over her father, because of the way that he changed.

Later in adulthood, she woke up one night to Archangel Gabriel sitting on her bed. She was shocked to feel something so loving in her presence. She asked why she had never seen anything but dark energies, her entire life. Gabriel showed her many of her past lives. As she began to talk about them the tears were streaming down her face. Some of those lives were horrific, a few involving her own children. In one, she had to kill her own child to save it from the torture that it would receive if she didn't. I can't even imagine.

The bottom line is that she was holding those traumas deep inside. She was holding on to so much darkness that she was only able to see more of it. She said that you have no idea how much trauma people are holding. Some have been through so much that they know nothing else. They don't know how to release it. Even with her knowing, the tears showed that the pain is still intense for her.

We tend to judge people who commit crimes and do other terrible things, but we really have no idea. It may be from a past life and they don't even know it.

I know that I've had to clear many negative ancestral and inherited emotions that were still in my body and they didn't even belong to me. Muscle testing tells me that I've had at least 8 very traumatic lives, although I seem to have released them.

The thing is that we have no idea what others have been through. Most of us have no idea what we have been through ourselves.

Feb 09, 2020

Why We May Not Get What We Want

Through a channel, I just heard a very detailed explanation of how the Universe works. I'm not even going to attempt to explain it, but two interesting things stood out.

One is that your consciousness is a single particle, that vibrates at an extremely rapid quantum level. The other is that with EVERY thought you are shifting from one timeline to another.

They also said that your 3rd dimensional mind does not work on the same level as your higher consciousness, which is the quantum field. Your 3D mind can't possibly imagine ALL of the infinite possibilities that could exist at that level. Hold the vibration of how you want to FEEL, but let go of ALL specifics and all EXPECTATIONS of what it should look like and what it should be.

It was also reaffirmed, that you made many agreements before you reincarnated. You may have agreed to experience one thing, before something else could happen. You agreed to awaken. You also agreed to learn and KNOW who and what you really are. Again and again I keep hearing that "You are God, in form" and until you KNOW that as a truth, all of your other agreements will remain. This subject has come up almost daily for me since December.

Jan 03, 2020

2020 Is The Year of Clarity

I've heard many predictions that 2020 is the year of clarity. I've heard the words "blinding clarity" used. This means that there will be many truths that you didn't want to see or truths that are shocking. For me, this began over a week ago.

A while back, I kept getting this feeling to leave this website alone. I even wrote about it a few times. Did I listen? Of course not. I was even muscle testing my feelings and ignoring that too. I just didn't understand. It didn't make sense. I was also ignoring something that we've all heard over and over. "Nothing needs to be FIXED".

Little did I know that I was going to get new information down the road. The new information was going to change something, on almost every page. We humans just don't want to trust our feelings, our intuition. We think that we know better.

So last week, I was led to a video that was definitely some of that "blinding clarity". After muscle testing all of it, asking over and over if this is the truth, I spent all day New Year's Eve making changes.

It's true that everything is about timing, patience, paying attention and trusting. The next post explains what happened.

Jan 02, 2020

Latest News

I hope that everyone enjoyed their holidays. Happy 2020!

Mine was a bit weird. I spent all day, New Year's Eve making changes to this website because of new information that I heard a few days before. I was honestly hoping that it was all wrong, but muscle testing gave me complete truth.

This new information is about dark energies who actually want us to destroy ourselves. They are pushing against our ascension, but no one wants to tell us that.

These are ancient energies, including the "fallen angels". They are millions, in some cases billions of years old. They have no love at all, they want to manipulate us, hoping that we fail.

These energies are coming through many channels that I and many others have trusted. The channels themselves have no idea, so it's not their fault.

This caused me to delete quote after quote that were very likely channeled through humans, who are channeling dark energies.

I fought it, but muscle testing said "yes", delete it, change it. I do trust my muscle testing, although I may not like the answers that I get.

I just wrote an entire page on this. I explain what we can do, so click on the link below.

Continue reading "Latest News"

Dec 23, 2019

This is REALLY Something To Think About

I just ran across Jamie Butler and Channeling Erik. I only listened to a few minutes of it so far, but I had to stop and write this.

It was an interview with Erik's mom and Jamie, channeling Erik.

Erik is a 20 year old young man, who committed suicide. One very significant point that he made was that it was pre-planned before his birth. His timing was a bit off, but it was MEANT to happen. This is not always the case, but for him it was.

If anyone chooses to listen, fair warning. When Erik speaks, he uses the language of a typical 20 year old. There's quite a few F-bombs, in case that bothers anyone. For me, I'm so used to it, it only made it more real, because Jaimie Butler does not talk like that.

The interviewer asked about his body. Erik said that you're total light and you move by thought. He said that it's hard to get used to. He gave the example of shaking hands with an old friend. He said that you don't feel the touch anymore, you merge with the other being. You then feel the emotions, but not the physical touch. He misses physical touch.

He talked about other things that he missed. He said that he loves pizza. He can manifest a pizza, but it's just not the same. He can't actually taste, smell or have the sensation of chewing a bite of pizza. He really misses that. Then he talked about riding his motorcycle. Yes, he can manifest a motorcycle in an instant, just by thought, but he doesn't have a physical body. He said that it's nothing like riding a motorcycle here on Earth. There's no physical sensation anymore.

These are just a couple of examples, but think about this. There are so many people who ask why they reincarnated here again. They don't want to be here anymore. In just a few minutes of listening to Erik, I understand why we come back. We come back to smell and taste freshly brewed coffee, to eat and taste delicious food, to feel physical hugs and kisses and to feel the grass under our feet. Think about life without your body and your 5 senses and then you'll understand why we come back.

Being on "the other side" isn't a "bad" thing, but there are no surprises, no mystery, no challenges. Erik says that Earth is really a great place to be. You just don't realize it.

Dec 08, 2019

This Was Intense

This is a great example of paying attention and putting the "puzzle pieces" together. At first it didn't sink in at all. In fact, it wasn't until 3 days later that I actually FELT it and it was a bit INTENSE. I was clearly being shown, but I wasn't paying attention.

No surprise, I was listening to a video. Yes, I listen to tons of videos. They said that a major core belief for many of us is that we don't believe that WE are God/Source/Creator. We don't believe that we have that much power. By now I've heard it hundreds of times so OK, I believe it. The Big Bang Theory pretty much explains it.

Then, I opened the book to do A Course In Miracles and it said, "There is nothing that my holiness cannot do." Looking back, isn't that basically the same thing?

Then last night I begin listening to another video. The woman was doing a group clearing on the deep core wound of being limited and not being the powerful creator that we are.

DUH!!! When you see the same basic thing coming up again and again it's telling you to PAY ATTENTION. It's not coincidence.

When she started doing the clearing it felt like someone had put a WWE championship belt around me and tightened it. It wasn't pain, just an intense pressure that went all the way around, with a large area in the front, around the solar plexus. What a surprise!! The solar plexus is your personal power.

Finally, I muscle tested it, saying "I guess this applies to me?" YES.

After I thought about it for a while, I realized that I have always been afraid to say or write, "You are God". I say that I believe it, but it's still a bit uncomfortable. Then the word "holiness" in A Course In Miracles makes me slightly uncomfortable. I don't consider myself holy at all, but then again what does that actually mean???

We have absolutely no idea the deep core beliefs and ideas that we still hold onto. After all these years and all of the things that I've cleared, this was BIG. You might wonder why this is so important. This is also new.

Until you believe with 100% certainty that you are "God". Until you believe how powerful you really are, karma, vows, agreements and soul contracts will continue to exist.

I muscle tested all of this and it is a TRUTH. I also muscle tested to see if I had released my belief and I got a yes.

A few weeks ago, I realized that I couldn't say I LOVE MONEY and really mean it. Every time I said it there was this tiny little twinge of discomfort.

2020 is almost here. We need to get rid of all this old garbage.

Nov 14, 2019

New Information

I've had so many ah-ha moments lately, that I'm going to combine a few here in one post.

This began a few weeks ago when I listened to a podcast by channel and actress, Dee Wallace. Some may remember her as the mother in the movie E.T., among others. As she answered each one of her calls, she would ask if they woke up and set their intention for the day. Many said that they did, but Dee's "guides" interrupted almost all of them with a "No".

The callers really thought that they had done it, but in reality they were just empty words. They were saying it, but deep within they didn't really believe it.

Some would say things like, "I want to do this today" and "I would like to do that", but that's not setting a FIRM intention. You have to KNOW what it is that you want. You have to KNOW it 100%.


Now this one is BIG. Has anyone ever told you that you MUST ask for your desires to be brought into the physical? You have to command it.

"I command that the PHYSICAL experience of this be made manifest in my life NOW".


You may also like the post below, called "This Was So Good" because it ties into this.

I also wrote a whole new page on "The Words That We Use". Do you realize that you CLAIM anything that follows I AM? Connect to that by clicking the "Continue reading New Information" link.

Continue reading "New Information"

Nov 13, 2019

This Was So Good

I heard this the other night and it makes so much sense.

"There must be choice in order to create consciousness". If you want to direct your energy to shift, to change, to expand, to recreate itself, there must be conscious choice. When there is no choice, it equals a victim experience.

In other words, for most of your life your subconscious mind has been running the show, making choices for you based on your beliefs. You're running on auto-pilot. How has that worked out for you?

What you have to do is consciously choose your experiences. Remember that there is nothing outside of you. You are your own creator. When you don't consciously choose and KNOW what you want, then you are allowing your subconscious mind to be in control. If you don't consciously take back the direction of your thoughts, you will just keep getting the same old results over and over again.

It is our divine right to create what we choose and to choose where we place our focus.

This isn't about TRUTH, it's where you're directing your energy. You want to direct your energy to the highest good, the highest possibility and the highest choice as much as possible.

What we tend to say is, "Well, I've been working on it" or "I'm trying". Working on it, trying, hoping, wishing is not directing your energy to the highest choice. All you'll get is more trying, more hoping and more wishing.

Your not telling a lie, you are directing energy. You are telling your own energy what you want to create and what you want to attract more of. So then, if "Ask and you shall receive" is true, have you been asking for your highest possible choice?

Again... nothing is outside of you. YOU are your own source. You are the creator. Take your power back. Own it. It's your energy, your vibration, your power.

When your subconscious mind tells you that it's not possible, simply correct it and say "I no longer believe that."

Oct 13, 2019

Listening To A Past Life Regression

Last night I was listening to a past life regression on You Tube. It was sort of long and boring, but I just kept listening. I knew that there was going to be a message there.

Many of us know by now, that we have chosen a basic path for this life. Many challenges were intended to happen. Many people in your life were meant to be here. Yet we often ask why we chose this particular life. What the heck were we thinking? This was a great example.

In the first life that this woman visited, she was married to a very successful man. She said that she felt like it was an arranged marriage and this was her "job". The house was huge and very ornate. She had money, servants, beautiful clothes, but her husband was never home. The only outside contact was a weekly tea with a few other women. There was an occasional "business" party when her husband was there, but she didn't really know anyone. Under hypnosis the woman kept saying, "I don't do anything. The servants even make my bed for me. What a sad life. It's so boring." The only thing that she liked about that life was the beautiful clothing.

They didn't get into too many specifics about her current life, but they did mention that she's very busy, to the point of exhaustion at times. It sounded like she has a big family and plenty of love, but she also takes on everyone else's problems. This life is chaotic. She also had a major medical scare recently. Her wardrobe in this life is minimal because she doesn't take time for herself and her own needs.

She realized that she chose her current life to be in total contrast to the first life. They were complete and total opposites in every way. She realized that the Universe was pushing her to have this regression in order to show her.

In her case it was obvious. She needs to find a halfway point between a life that she thought was totally boring and this life of chaos. She needs balance. She needs to slow down. The medical scare was a way to get her attention.

I say it over and over that you never do anything "wrong", you are just being shown something. You simply have to figure out what it is. You chose this life for a reason. It really is a "game". Everything about this regression made it crystal clear.

In just the last few days I've heard "jigsaw puzzle" mentioned 3 or 4 times. That's what life is. You have to figure out where all of the pieces go.

Feb 27, 2019

Linear Thinking

This post applies to those of us who have been on this "path" for many years. Those who know how the Universe works and completely understand that we have created our own realities.

Recently, I've mentioned a couple of times, that I'm getting a very clear message to STOP. It's not a voice, it's just a knowing. I've muscle tested many of my questions about it and I'm simply being told to stop everything. I ask if I should listen to a particular video. "No". Should I read this book? "No".

I finally get it. Humans believe that they have to do, do, do. We believe in "a hard days work". We believe that we need to keep doing all of the things that we've always done. We believe that there's more to learn. Haven't you heard Abraham-Hicks and others tell us to stop trying so hard and get out of your own way? It's time to let go of doing and just relax. Take a nap. Have some fun. I can't remember who it was but one of the videos that I heard recently said, "YOU'RE DONE just STOP"!

Everything has to do with linear thinking and old 3D beliefs. I wrote a whole new page about it. Hopefully I explained it simply enough that everyone will understand it.

Continue reading "Linear Thinking"

Feb 04, 2019

What Are You Doing Most of the Day?

Many of us have some sort of daily "spiritual practice". Some may meditate, do yoga, journal or say affirmations. How much time do you spend on those practices each day? Maybe 15 minutes, a half hour or an hour?

What do you do for the rest of the day? Where do you allow your mind to wander? Are there things that still push your buttons? How do you actually FEEL the rest of the day? Do you show gratitude during the day? Do you spend most of your time living in each NOW moment or do you find yourself going back into judgement, worry or fear later on?

It's your DOMINANT thoughts and feelings that matter. It's the rest of your day that matters. If you're doing your "spiritual work" for just a small portion of your day and ignoring the rest, then it's actually doing very little.

I used to have a page on this site about meditation and another on visualization. I deleted both of them. If you're not paying attention to the rest of your day then it doesn't really matter what practice you use.

I never liked meditation and I can't visualize anything. I've tried, but it only frustrated me. Yet I thought that they were sooo important. I learned a long time ago that if you don't enjoy it, don't do it. If it's frustrating in any way, don't do it. If you don't have time, don't worry about it. If you forget to do it, oh well. No one cares.

I'm not saying that these practices aren't a good idea, if you enjoy them. What I'm saying is, check in with yourself quite often during the day. Stop and see how you're FEELING, often. Spend more time paying attention to the rest of your day than any "spiritual practices". If you haven't learned to live in the NOW, for most of your day, that's actually a better place to put your efforts.

Jan 13, 2019

The Thought Behind The Thought

I remember reading about "the thought behind the thought" many years ago. If memory serves me, I believe that it was in the book Conversations With God by Neale Donald Walsh. Unfortunately, when you read as much as I do, you tend to forget some of these things.

Last night I was listening to a discussion about money. It was like something smacked me up the side of the head.

There is no doubt that it's about how you FEEL, but it's also the WHY, the REASON that you want something that can make the difference.

What feeling would $1,000,000 give you? Many say freedom and I often use freedom myself. BUT, think about "the thought behind the thought". Is it freedom from the "prison" that you've been in? Is it freedom from a job that you hate? Is it freedom from that stack of bills that you have? The actual thought behind that thought is ESCAPE and it's not a good place to be.

Sometimes we use words that sound good on the surface, but if you dig deeper, they don't have the same meaning. Escape and freedom are very similar, but think about the feeling behind each one. Escape definitely has a negative undertone to it and the Universe will say, "They aren't quite ready yet".

If you do things, want things, feel things from pure love and joy then that's a great place to be.

Jan 03, 2019


This is something to really think about. Many people believe that they are being punished for something or that they did something wrong and that's why things are challenging. They may believe that they don't deserve to be happy.

Have you ever thought how easy it would be for the Universe (God) to just forget about you? With 7.3 billion people on this planet it wouldn't be difficult.

No, the Universe loves you. These challenges are an attempt to SHOW you, to remind you, in the only way that it can, that there is another solution. It's attempting to make you recognize it. It may be opening the door to another option, but you don't see it.

Haven't you ever looked back on something and said, "You know what? That's the best thing that ever happened.

This is why you have to stay calm, change your perspective and ask questions. What is the Universe trying to show me or get me to see? How can I look at this differently? Pay attention and watch for signs and synchronicities.

Even if this is something that you (your soul) planned before birth, ask what you have learned from it.

Continue reading "Challenges"

Nov 23, 2018

Advice From Neale Donald Walsch

People ask me all the time, “Neale, how can I get more abundance in my life? How can I get better relationships? How can I earn more money? How can I have better health?”

I look them in the eye and say: “You know what? That’s not the real problem. That’s the EFFECT of the problem. There is another problem that is the root of all other problems.”

The real problem is that you’re trying to do it all alone. You’re living as if there’s no other force, no other energy in the Universe that you can tap into. And you think life has to be that way.

Life is meant to be exactly the opposite of that.

Life is meant to be a process where you collaboratively engage with the essence of the Universe or "God", if you choose to call it that. When you bring that essence into your life, all those other problems of low income, relationships that don’t work, not finding the right livelihood...all these problems can go away.

Nov 02, 2016

How Many Times Have You Said......

"I don't need any help." "I'll do it myself." "No one can do it the way that I like it done anyway." "I can do it faster than they can."

I think that most of us say those things all the time. Most of us aren't very good at receiving. We take control and we just don't expect help. We're not used to it.

Unfortunately, when we don't allow and accept help, we're not being a good receiver. The Universe won't give us what we want either, if we don't know how to receive. Learn to accept assistance and receive it graciously.

Oct 31, 2016

Here's A Question For You

I think that I can safely say that we all want to be happy. Whether it's money or a relationship or traveling, we would all like to be really happy.

How many times in the past week have you done something to make yourself happy? Really give this some thought.

Creating comes from where you put your energy and your attention. We rarely put that energy and attention on ourselves. We put it on everyone and everything else.

You are the only one that can create for YOU. Love yourself enough to make time for YOU and do something that brings you joy.